Well today was a crraazzzyy day for me, and crazy in a good sense :)
Aaron, Henry, Sam, Su, and I met up for a time of worship/prayer today, and it was great! i really could sense the presence of God in that place, but for some reason i wasn't satisfied with that, somewhere in my heart i wanted more and more and just more of God's presence in that room till it filled the whole room to the extend that would find it so 'thick' that it would be even hard to breathe in. This might be due to the reason that i read book called "The God Chasers" the night before i slept and it had an awesome testimony of the Holy Spirit's presence, i guess i just wanted to feel the same way the people in that book felt. Anyway, after that time of worship/prayer, we had our weekly worhipNet. Anne preached more about casting out of demons, and corporate prayer, which i felt were both so powerful and Biblical(and i really wanted to know more about casting out of demons after spiritual encounter) so it was good. At the end of worshipNet, we got together and prayed, then Anne gave a prophecy to Kevin and after that asked ME to minister to him! When i first heard that, my first reaction was like "gomg?", coz i had never ministered to anyone before and so had no idea to do at all!! my first reaction was to freak out! Thank God Anne guided me through the whole process and taught me what to say too.phew. but after that experience, i felt great! Ministering to someone was really hard because you really needed the Holy Spirit to tell you what to say, so for me that was the hardest part. After worshipNet, Anne asked me what i said to Kevin and said that what i said was true and that she had sensed the same thing as well soo... Thank God!!
Another amazing thing that happened during our prayer time was that i saw a vision of myself. It was me holding this small sack of coins(current), with a very big but thin wall infront of me(stronghold thats holding me back), and on the other side of the wall was a whole huge heap of gold and treasure chest(future). So i think God was telling me that what i'm experiencing now is nothing compared to what i will be experiencing in the future, but first i'll have to overcome that stronghold first, which i think i have a rough idea of.
So daily devotion today was from Romans 8:18-21 (thx to Su's recommendation of Romans :P)
18I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. 19The creation waits in eager expectation for the sons of God to be revealed. 20For the creation was subjected to frustration, not by its own choice, but by the will of the one who subjected it, in hope 21that the creation itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the glorious freedom of the children of God.
Wow, these verses pretty much sums up what i've been thinking over the past few days! I really believe that what our church is experiencing is nothing compared to what God has installed for us in the very near future, especially for myself too. In verse 19 it says, we are to wait in eager expectation for the sons of God to be revealed, which would mean us? Does that mean that our time will come for us to shine? And verse 20 really drummed it down hard into my heart, that the will of God is not by our own choice, but God's, the one who subjected it. Which reminds me yet again that ultimately we are on this earth to do God's will, and it doesn't matter if we want to do it or not, because the decision is not ours, but His, who so wonderfully created us and saved us from the pits of hell. And lastly, it says that we WILL BE liberated from our bondage to decay! Amen! and brought into the GLORIOUS FREEDOM of the children of God. It reminds us yet again of our greater reward when we endure to the end for God and His Kingdom.
Which reminds me of another vision i had during the worshipNet prayer, i saw this huge massive waterfall, and we were right the edge of the waterfall holding on to a rock for our dear lives, because the moment we let go, the raging waters will just sweep us into the waterfall and we'll be plunged into the great dark depths of the waterfall where we can't even see the bottom! However i felt that God wanted us to stop holding on to the rock as though as it was our comfort zone, God wants us to let go and trust in him as we get pushed into the future. Even though the future seems dark and uncertain to us and many are afraid to advance, God wants us to trust in him and He'll lead us to wherever He wants to go. Maybe this vision was for me alone, but im not too sure about that.
One last thing, after reading the first chapter of "The God Chaser", i really felt this deep desire to hunger for more of Him. After seeing how great the Holy Spirit can be, i really feel that we shouldn't be content of the current amount of God's presence that we feel at church services, because we can get soo much more and God is capable for so much more as well. By being content with what we have, will never force ourselves to really hunger and desire for more of Him, and his presence. Two things i learnt is that we shouldn't want to know more about Him, but to actually want to know HIM, and that He is not going to pour out His Spirit where He doesn't find hunger.
Majesty, majesty, Your grace has found me just as i am, empty handed but alive in Your hands
Aaron, Henry, Sam, Su, and I met up for a time of worship/prayer today, and it was great! i really could sense the presence of God in that place, but for some reason i wasn't satisfied with that, somewhere in my heart i wanted more and more and just more of God's presence in that room till it filled the whole room to the extend that would find it so 'thick' that it would be even hard to breathe in. This might be due to the reason that i read book called "The God Chasers" the night before i slept and it had an awesome testimony of the Holy Spirit's presence, i guess i just wanted to feel the same way the people in that book felt. Anyway, after that time of worship/prayer, we had our weekly worhipNet. Anne preached more about casting out of demons, and corporate prayer, which i felt were both so powerful and Biblical(and i really wanted to know more about casting out of demons after spiritual encounter) so it was good. At the end of worshipNet, we got together and prayed, then Anne gave a prophecy to Kevin and after that asked ME to minister to him! When i first heard that, my first reaction was like "gomg?", coz i had never ministered to anyone before and so had no idea to do at all!! my first reaction was to freak out! Thank God Anne guided me through the whole process and taught me what to say too.phew. but after that experience, i felt great! Ministering to someone was really hard because you really needed the Holy Spirit to tell you what to say, so for me that was the hardest part. After worshipNet, Anne asked me what i said to Kevin and said that what i said was true and that she had sensed the same thing as well soo... Thank God!!
Another amazing thing that happened during our prayer time was that i saw a vision of myself. It was me holding this small sack of coins(current), with a very big but thin wall infront of me(stronghold thats holding me back), and on the other side of the wall was a whole huge heap of gold and treasure chest(future). So i think God was telling me that what i'm experiencing now is nothing compared to what i will be experiencing in the future, but first i'll have to overcome that stronghold first, which i think i have a rough idea of.
So daily devotion today was from Romans 8:18-21 (thx to Su's recommendation of Romans :P)
18I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. 19The creation waits in eager expectation for the sons of God to be revealed. 20For the creation was subjected to frustration, not by its own choice, but by the will of the one who subjected it, in hope 21that the creation itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the glorious freedom of the children of God.
Wow, these verses pretty much sums up what i've been thinking over the past few days! I really believe that what our church is experiencing is nothing compared to what God has installed for us in the very near future, especially for myself too. In verse 19 it says, we are to wait in eager expectation for the sons of God to be revealed, which would mean us? Does that mean that our time will come for us to shine? And verse 20 really drummed it down hard into my heart, that the will of God is not by our own choice, but God's, the one who subjected it. Which reminds me yet again that ultimately we are on this earth to do God's will, and it doesn't matter if we want to do it or not, because the decision is not ours, but His, who so wonderfully created us and saved us from the pits of hell. And lastly, it says that we WILL BE liberated from our bondage to decay! Amen! and brought into the GLORIOUS FREEDOM of the children of God. It reminds us yet again of our greater reward when we endure to the end for God and His Kingdom.
Which reminds me of another vision i had during the worshipNet prayer, i saw this huge massive waterfall, and we were right the edge of the waterfall holding on to a rock for our dear lives, because the moment we let go, the raging waters will just sweep us into the waterfall and we'll be plunged into the great dark depths of the waterfall where we can't even see the bottom! However i felt that God wanted us to stop holding on to the rock as though as it was our comfort zone, God wants us to let go and trust in him as we get pushed into the future. Even though the future seems dark and uncertain to us and many are afraid to advance, God wants us to trust in him and He'll lead us to wherever He wants to go. Maybe this vision was for me alone, but im not too sure about that.
One last thing, after reading the first chapter of "The God Chaser", i really felt this deep desire to hunger for more of Him. After seeing how great the Holy Spirit can be, i really feel that we shouldn't be content of the current amount of God's presence that we feel at church services, because we can get soo much more and God is capable for so much more as well. By being content with what we have, will never force ourselves to really hunger and desire for more of Him, and his presence. Two things i learnt is that we shouldn't want to know more about Him, but to actually want to know HIM, and that He is not going to pour out His Spirit where He doesn't find hunger.
Majesty, majesty, Your grace has found me just as i am, empty handed but alive in Your hands
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