Ok, my comp is back up and running!
rawrr so many things happened today that i'm not even sure if it's a good thing or a bad thing.I remember the morning service as really 'heavy' most probably because when anne was preaching, something hit me and got me thinking.. and i ended up thinking for a long time during them sermon, and the more i thought about things the worse it seemed to get. Anyway it just got all blehh and i was so confused/lost at myself. Then there was an alter call, i knew i needed to go up, so i went, and ended up being prayed for by all 3 pastors. Each one said different things, but all seemed to be relevant(either that or i have lots of issues). I guess i just felt really burdened down? but by what? I'm not even sure myself, and that's what makes it worse >.< Then we had bilingual service, which i thought worship was fun, since yang was nuts on the drums and i got to play the guitar(which i think i played half of the songs wrongly). After that, the word from Ps Chris was a good one, and got me thinking: Do i really know what grace truly is?? Then at the end of the night, we had a small worship/prayer meeting, where i realised that my mind likes playing games on myself. One moment i would be fine, then the next moment a thought comes in and i'm suddenly all emo, then after a while i'll be alright.. bah that was weird.. i think there was too much for my mind to handle in one day..
hmm i need to say sorry to God, and ask for His forgiveness.. i've been so dumb and foolish, and short-sighted. Need to get a grip once more.
Day 79.
Well Moses passes away, and Joshua takes over the role of leading the Israelites. Under God's direction, the Israelites knock down the walls of Jericho and utterly destroyed the city, leaving no person alive. Interesting thing is that if the Israelites shouted so loud that the fortified walls of the city came down, wouldn't it have been loud enough to make them deaf as well? Either God protected their ears from going deaf, or He just knocked down the walls Himself. Then from there they went to attack Ai, which they failed on their first attempt and had to flee. The reason of their defeat was because of disobedience to God, but because Joshua consulted with God, he was told what to do, and the next time they attacked, the Israelites had the complete victory. This reminded me once again of how bad disobience is, just because they won the war at Jericho, didn't mean that they were gonna win the war at Ai. They failed the first time because they were disobient, so the punishment for disobience can be very severe.
rawrr so many things happened today that i'm not even sure if it's a good thing or a bad thing.I remember the morning service as really 'heavy' most probably because when anne was preaching, something hit me and got me thinking.. and i ended up thinking for a long time during them sermon, and the more i thought about things the worse it seemed to get. Anyway it just got all blehh and i was so confused/lost at myself. Then there was an alter call, i knew i needed to go up, so i went, and ended up being prayed for by all 3 pastors. Each one said different things, but all seemed to be relevant(either that or i have lots of issues). I guess i just felt really burdened down? but by what? I'm not even sure myself, and that's what makes it worse >.< Then we had bilingual service, which i thought worship was fun, since yang was nuts on the drums and i got to play the guitar(which i think i played half of the songs wrongly). After that, the word from Ps Chris was a good one, and got me thinking: Do i really know what grace truly is?? Then at the end of the night, we had a small worship/prayer meeting, where i realised that my mind likes playing games on myself. One moment i would be fine, then the next moment a thought comes in and i'm suddenly all emo, then after a while i'll be alright.. bah that was weird.. i think there was too much for my mind to handle in one day..
hmm i need to say sorry to God, and ask for His forgiveness.. i've been so dumb and foolish, and short-sighted. Need to get a grip once more.
Day 79.
Well Moses passes away, and Joshua takes over the role of leading the Israelites. Under God's direction, the Israelites knock down the walls of Jericho and utterly destroyed the city, leaving no person alive. Interesting thing is that if the Israelites shouted so loud that the fortified walls of the city came down, wouldn't it have been loud enough to make them deaf as well? Either God protected their ears from going deaf, or He just knocked down the walls Himself. Then from there they went to attack Ai, which they failed on their first attempt and had to flee. The reason of their defeat was because of disobedience to God, but because Joshua consulted with God, he was told what to do, and the next time they attacked, the Israelites had the complete victory. This reminded me once again of how bad disobience is, just because they won the war at Jericho, didn't mean that they were gonna win the war at Ai. They failed the first time because they were disobient, so the punishment for disobience can be very severe.
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