Wednesday, October 14, 2009 | 5 comments  
hmm something is wrong with me, been sleeping too much and waking up really late. gotta fix myself, and this weird sleeping pattern. Ok i gotta set today to be a productive day for my studies, and also to be focused on God. taking it one step at a time.

2 tim 2
8 Remember that Jesus Christ, of the seed of David, was raised from the dead according to my gospel, 9 for which I suffer trouble as an evildoer, even to the point of chains; but the word of God is not chained.

it's great to know that though many times i get chained or restricted by things around me, situations, circumstances, or even words that people say..the word of God that we run with and hold onto is not chained. My body is physical, and the world i live in is physical, but what we aim for is something spiritual and it cannot be bound by the things of our time. So although its common for me to fail, it is totally impossible for the word to fail. It's just a great reminder that we who are weak have something firm and solid to hold onto, something that we can rely on and knowing that it is always be there, staying the same no matter what may happen here on this earth. His word is our hope that keeps us going.. May that be the case for me too.
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Tuesday, October 13, 2009 | 0 comments  
rawr its been a while, and i've been pretty lazy. dont really have an excuse anymore since all my assignments are done and i shouldn't be sleeping at weird hours in the morning. Just to add to my sorta journal i guess on things to thank God for and what He's done in my life over the past week, one of them is my subjects for next year at uni where i was worried i won't be able to graduate by end of next year because sometimes courses are only offered in semester1 or semester 2 only. and basically that could have held me back for another year and would have me into lots of trouble. So thank God that my subjects for next year is all looking fine. Then Ps Ardian and his family came over, although it seems like ages away it was actually just the weekend before, and he gave me stuff to think about again, but overall was really refreshing and encouraging so praise God.
Just to add something else, my mind has been pretty uneasy and all these thoughts keep popping into my head, i dont know if they're good or bad, or if they're meant to tell me something. Sometimes it feels that yup everything is fine and will work out, but then sometimes it just becomes a complete mess and it leaves me lost and confused. Then i have the occasional 'lets plan for the future', and realise that there's a high chance that i won't be here for very long, so i start to weigh options and think to myself, whats the point? But at the end of the day, it's all up to God and whatever He has planned for my life. I pray that i can keep focused on my work at hand, and not getting caught up in things which i shouldnt be involved in.. trying to cut all emotional bonds so that i won't get too emotionally attached, it'l probably for the best.

2 Timothy 2
1 You therefore, my son, be strong in the grace that is in Christ Jesus. 2 And the things that you have heard from me among many witnesses, commit these to faithful men who will be able to teach others also. 3 You therefore must endure hardship as a good soldier of Jesus Christ. 4 No one engaged in warfare entangles himself with the affairs of this life, that he may please him who enlisted him as a soldier.

I asked myself how can i be strong in the grace? no idea, but being strong is what i definitely need to be now because exams are coming up! must not be entangled in affairs of this life because it will easily weigh me down..and yes i must aim to be entwined with Christ, Ps catherine shared that and it has been on my mind ever since.

feels like im lost in transition, stuck between seasons.. i need some direction!
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